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一封写给猫的信:亲爱的猫咪,到天堂了不要忘记给我们发个消息

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发信人Michelle是一位长期在美容领域工作的女性,曾经与她的来自克罗地亚的先生在上海工作和居住过数年,喂养过13只流浪猫。最终留下了7只流浪猫,并请家里能旅行的亲戚都出动了——因为她和先生两人不可以带7只猫上飞机。

亲爱的猫咪,到天堂了不要忘记给我们发个消息

2018年他们从上海回到加州湾区生活,7只猫来到了崭新的国度——美国。其中有一只猫因为生病,需要手术,前后花费了他们3万多美元。前不久,另外一只猫不幸去世。当时正在国内出差的Michelle听到在湾区的先生说小猫快不行了,立即决定从上海飞回加州。没想到 ,还是晚了整整两个小时。

亲爱的猫咪,到天堂了不要忘记给我们发个消息

她忍着泪水,用英文写下了这封致小猫的信

下文为中文的翻译版本。

亲爱的 Minie

我写这封信是因为我相信你可以从小猫天堂里读到这封信。我写这篇文章也是因为我需要将自己锁在房间,还因为我错过了整整两个小时与你说一声再见……

亲爱的猫咪,到天堂了不要忘记给我们发个消息

虽然在我听到医生的诊断后,我把我的行程缩短了,赶紧回去看你,但在我们到家之前 ,爸爸离开去机场接我的时候,你接了最后一口气。在那两个小时里,你是不是想为我而挣扎着,但你又等不及了?或者你想等到空无一人时,自己离开,因为这更符合你的风格?你等到我的航班到达以确保我安全着陆了吗?或者,你因为没有我没能及时回来而生我的气吗?你在想,妈妈,我真的病了,你为什么不在这里照顾我?或者你在想妈妈,我现在感觉很虚弱。我认为我不能再坚持下去了。

亲爱的猫咪,到天堂了不要忘记给我们发个消息

当爸爸说你吃得不多但仍在散步时仍然喜欢在院子里打发时间,我觉得你还有更多的时间。我真的很抱歉,我没有赶早班机。医生周二给了我们诊断,周四我回来了,但那还不够快。我真蠢。我是一个愚蠢的、过于乐观的人,当时还计划看看我们是否可以根据医生的初步建议去寻求治疗计划给你另一个战斗机会。也许你太了解我了。你知道我们会像拯救Moe一样拯救你,但你太累了,无法完成所有这些。也许你知道我不能也不会让你离开。也许这就是你回家之前决定离开的原因。

亲爱的猫咪,到天堂了不要忘记给我们发个消息

如果有人问我为什么这么爱你,我不会告诉他们这是因为你是完美的猫。实际上,你远非完美。你是顽固的,充满活力的,也是最困难的一群。你太情绪化了,需要三名护士才能在你身上扎针。

当我们第一次从公寓搬到旧金山的第一所独立屋时 ,你就得到了一个合适的选择 。然后,当我们搬去上海时,你就通过每天在我们的新沙发上撒尿向我们宣战了。当我们将你撒尿的沙发套放在洗衣机里几十次之后,我们终于理解了你给我们传递的信息:你觉得阳台不够爽。你需要一个院子!所以我们搬到了一所房子,你终于停止了战争。

但随后,爸爸开始一次又一次地将获救的小猫带回家。

有一段时间,我们家里有10只猫!

亲爱的猫咪,到天堂了不要忘记给我们发个消息

你容忍所有这一切。即使我们承诺我们只是在抚养,而这些小猫只是暂时的,我们撒了谎。我们是可怕的寄养父母,并保留了其中五个。所以,总共有7个人,包括你的妹妹Moe,你实际上两个人都不对付。所以,你开始再次以撒尿的方式表达不满。

我们花了很长时间才弄清楚你经常发生的尿路感染来自所有的压力和变化,而你只想拥有自己的垃圾箱和共用厕所。只有当我看到那个年轻的男孩猫无情地追着你,即使我大声叫停止它们时,我才开始明白你为什么一直如此紧张 。从那时起,你必须被隔离在一个单独的房间,院子里或车库里。

因此,每当你看到我们时,你总是很兴奋并渴望我们被你的行为所打动。现在回想起来,我想你们在那些年里应该感到非常孤单,尽管我们每晚都会为你们留下NPR收音机,我们也会让你们到院子里去看鸟儿,天气好的时候去看看松鼠。我们花费了不少时间对你们进行研究以便理解你们,和你们一起度过一段美好的时光。

亲爱的猫咪,到天堂了不要忘记给我们发个消息

在你生活的17年中,其中11年在上海度过。不幸的是你讨厌中国。

去年,我们搬回去加州之后,我们意识到你真的很讨厌那里。很长一段时间我们都没有见到你这么高兴。你的皮毛再次闪亮,你的精神很高,你只是看起来如此轻松和满足。

在中国的那些年里,我想你真的活得好辛苦。你是加州女孩。你习惯了那里灿烂的阳光、干净的空气以及郁郁葱葱的树木。

亲爱的猫咪,到天堂了不要忘记给我们发个消息

在我们搬回来的那一刻,你似乎已经把它全部拿走了。当医生给我们诊断时,我想知道在中国度过的那些日子是否会导致你的癌症……我的内心充满了感伤……对不起,你在父母和父亲享受外国人生活的同时,容忍那些你不喜欢的地方。我很感激你容忍了那些不快,并带着我们回到了美国。

我非常感激你在你心爱的加利福尼亚度过了最后一年。看着你在花园和树木环绕的后院享受日光浴,与我们一起看松鼠是我最幸福的回忆之一。

你是冥顽不化,万分挑剔,时常脆弱的猫,但为什么我们如此爱你?我们就是非常爱你的顽固,挑剔和脆弱。是的,我对你生了很多次气 ,但后来才意识到这是我们的错。

我们不明白你想告诉我们什么。在我们开始了解你的行为后,我们才知道该怎么做以适应你或减轻你的压力

我猜这就是我们所说的爱情。

尽管如此,你确实是我们所知道的最美丽,最可爱和最独特的猫。你拥有最美丽,最厚的皮草。你有最可爱的白色爪子和脖子。你有最美丽的脸,不是太圆,也不是很瘦。当你小的时候,你会跳起来抓住我们放在门上20分钟的玩具,玩到你自己气喘吁吁。

你是我见过的唯一一只玩弄玩具的猫,像狗一样气喘吁吁。

你会坐在我们的桌子上几个小时,看着我们耐心地工作。而你是最熟练的猎人。你从院子里抓到了这么多鸟和老鼠。当你把那些猎物作为礼物送给我们时,我却像一个疯女人一样尖叫不已,弄的你看起来一脸迷惑。

对你有如此深重的回忆,成为我们联系的纽带,并在我们的余生中记住你。

你和Moe是我们结婚当年的第一对。你们俩对我们都很特别。

你是爸爸的女孩,因为爸爸比我更富耐心。无论你深处何种困境,他从未对你发脾气。我知道你非常爱他。爸爸因为你的离去非常失落,流了很多眼泪。他是一个不轻易流泪的爸爸。

尽管他工作繁忙,给你喂药,给你静脉注射,给你刷牙,在院子里和你一起度过,然后带你去看医生,他照顾你很好。他是世界上最好的小猫爸爸。

我希望你知道你这辈子得到了各种各样的爱,你应该尝试在小猫天堂结交一些朋友。我知道你更喜欢人类。猫实际上是很好的伴侣。人类忙碌而且自私 。他们经常有其他优先事项,让你们自己回家。另一方面,猫给你无条件的爱。我想你下次应该给他们一个机会。也许你会有一个不那么孤独的生活。在我的下一个生命中,如果你仍然拥有我,我仍然会想要你作为我的毛皮宝贝。

写于持续的心痛中。

永远爱你的妈妈

米歇尔

附件:原版英文信

Dear Minie,       July 13, 2019

 

I am writing you this letter because I believe you can read it from the kitty heaven.  I am writing this also because I need a closure since I was two hours too late to say goodbye…  

 

Even though I cut my trip short and rushed back to see you after I heard about doctor’s diagnosis for you, you took your last breath after daddy left for airport to pick me up but before we arrived home.  During those two hours, were you trying to hang in there for me but you just couldn’t wait any longer?  Or you wanted to wait until no one was around to leave on your own because that’s more of your style?  Did you wait until my flight arrived to make sure I landed safely? Or, were you mad at me for not coming back in time?  Were you wondering, “Mommy, I am really sick, why are you not here to take care of me?” or were you thinking “Mommy, I am feeling very weak now.  I don’t think I can hang on any more. Hurry!”  

 

When daddy said you were not eating much but were still walking and still liked to spend time in the yard during the day, I thought you still had a bit more time.  I am really sorry I didn’t catch an earlier flight.  Doctor gave us diagnosis on Tuesday and I flew back on Thursday, but that wasn’t fast enough.  I was stupid.  I was being my stupid optimistic self, planning to see if we could go for the treatment plan against doctor’s initial advice to give you another fighting chance.  Maybe you knew me too well.  You knew we would try to save you like we saved Moe, but you were too tired to go through all that. Maybe you knew I couldn’t and wouldn’t let you go.  Maybe that’s why you decided to go before I got home.  

 

If anyone asked me why I loved you so much, I wouldn’t tell them it’s because you were the perfect cat.  Actually, you were far from perfect.  You were stubborn, feisty, and the most difficult one of the bunch.  You were so feisty, it took three nurses to stick a needle in you.  When we made our first move from our condo to the first new house in San Francisco, you threw a fit.  Then, you declared a war on me when we moved to Shanghai by pissing on our new couch every day.  After taking the couch cover to the cleaners a dozens of times, we finally got the message:  “The balcony won’t do. You need a yard!”  So we moved to a house, and you finally stopped.  

 

But then, daddy started bringing rescued kittens home, over and over again.  For a while, we had 10 cats in the house!  You tolerated through all that.  Even though we promised we’re just fostering and these kittens were only temporary, we lied.  We were terrible foster parents and kept five of them.  So, there’s a total of 7 including your sister Moe, whom you actually didn’t get along with either.  So, you started pissing around again.  It took us a long time to figure out that your frequent urinary tract infection was from all the stress and changes and that you just wanted to have your own litter box and sharing toilets is not your thing.   And only when I saw the young boy cats chasing after you relentlessly even when I yelled to stop them, I started to understand why you were so stressed all the time.  Ever since then, you had to be isolated in a separate room, in the yard or the garage.  So you were always excited and eager to be touched whenever you saw us.  I am really sorry that you were probably feeling lonely quite a bit during those years even though we left NPR radio on for you every night and we let you out to the yard to catch birds and watch squirrels when the weather was nice.  And we sneaked you into the study when we were working so we could have some quality time with you alone. 

 

Out of the 17 years you lived, 11 of them were spent in Shanghai.  Unfortunately you hated China.  Only after moving back last year, we realized that you really hated it there.  We’d not seen you so happy for a long long time.  Your fur was shiny again, your spirit was high and you just looked so at ease and content again.  During those years in China, I thought you were just being difficult.  You are a Californian girl.  The sun, the air and the trees.  You seemed to have taken it all in the moment we moved back.  When doctor gave us the diagnosis, I wondered to myself if spending so many years in China had contributed to your cancer….  The amount of guilt ached my heart….  I’m sorry that you tolerated those years in a place you didn’t like while mom and dad enjoyed their expat life.  But I am grateful that you stuck it out, and moved back to the States with us.  I am most grateful that you got to spend your last year in your beloved California.  Watching you sunbathing in the backyard surrounded by flowers and trees, watching squirrels is one of my most happy memories of you.  

 

So, why do we love you so much even though you were the most stubborn, feisty, picky and easily stressed cat?  Well, we love you so much because you were the most stubborn, feisty, picky and easily stressed.  Yes, I was so mad at you so many times but later I realized it was our fault.  We didn’t understand what you were trying to tell us.  After we started to understand your behavior, we knew what to do to accommodate you or reduce your stress.  I guess that’s what we call love. 

 

Despite it all, you are indeed the most beautiful, most cuddly and most unique cat we have known.  You have the most beautiful and thickest fur.  You have the cutest white paws and neck.  You have the most beautiful face, not too round and not to skinny.  When you were little, you would jump to catch a toy we put on the door for 20 minutes until you were panting.  You’re the only cat I have seen that went all out on a toy, panting like a dog.  You would sit on our desk for hours watching us work patiently.  And you were the most skillful hunter.  You caught so many birds and mice from the yard.  You looked so puzzled when I screamed like a mad woman when you presented those preys as presents for us.  

 

There are so many memories of you that we get to keep with us and remember you for the rest of our life.  You and Moe were the first pair we adopted the year we got married.  Both of you are special to us.  You’re daddy’s girl because daddy was more patient than me.  He never once lost temper at you no matter how difficult you were being.  You loved him so much, I know.  Daddy has been really down and cried many tears over you.  He took such good care of you despite his busy schedule, feeding you medicine, giving you IV, brushing you, spending time with you in the yard, and taking you to doctors.  He is the best kitty daddy in the world.  

 

I hope you know you were very much loved in this life.  You should try to make some friends in kitty heaven.  I know you like humans more.  Cats make pretty good companions actually.  Humans are busy and selfish.  They often have other priorities and leave you at home by yourself.  Cats, on the other hand, give you unconditional love.  I think you should give them a chance next time.  Maybe you will have a less lonely life.   In my next life, I would still want you as my fur baby, if you would still have me.  

 

With so much love that my heart hurts, 

 

 

Your mommy Michelle

 

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